obedience

This word has been floating around my head all morning. 

It’s not something I use very often in talking about my relationship with God and I had a feeling that it may be the next season to come through this year. So far, I’ve been going through a heartbreaking and heart-lifting season of adventure. The Father has stretched my heart beyond the limits I thought it could bear and I’ve seen myself nearly fall apart many times. 

Then, He sent me this through a written testimony today:

“You continue to get your heart broken because you’re holding the pen of your life and trying to write your own story. I am the Author of true love. I am the Creator of romance. I know your heart’s every desire. I want to script a beautiful tale just for you, but first you must give the pen to me. You must let Me become the center of your existence. You must let Me have total control of your love life, and every other area of your life as well.”

2015 carried with it three distinct seasons of life: surrender, preparation, and adventure.

Each season, with the understanding that Holy Spirit gave me, I had expectations. In each season, those expectations were beautifully changed despite my lack of faith, trust, and obedience.

2016, grow my heart.